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I HATE YOU!!!   
12:41am 27/09/2006
  I hate how u have taken my best freind in a matter of weeks

I hate how i cant talk to him and havent been able to for ages

I hate the way i cant talk to one of your friends for a really stupid reson

I hate the way u have made life complicated and friendships worthless

I hate having to sneak about not to offend you

I hate how u talk about me

I hate you.. basically
 
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11:36pm 25/09/2006
  Fuck

Im so angry

I cant stand being treated like a fucking lepper.. Jst grow the fuck up...

All i want to do is talk to them .. But I cant.. cos im the bad one..

Oh dont go near her cos shes got craigs ex syndrome.. Its highly contageous.. and will prolly fucking kill you.l. I have no idea how shes lived so long with it... You wont tho..
Jst grow up you bitch...
Controlling people jst drives them away..
Why should i ahve to be sneaky about talking to carrie or criag?
Why should carrie not see me or rob.. jst cos u dont want to.. FUCK OFF YOU FUCKING BITCH !!!!!!
 
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12:07am 30/08/2006
  Oh well..

Due to something a nameless person said.. I think I shall stop writing things that happened that I personally view as great in this...

Because SOMEONE took the piss out of it on monday... Yes I mean you Kasey.. Thanks for making me feel crap... And also  I think I might stop with my silly little casual storys... You know the .. Oh one time I walked from here.. Or one time I sat under there for 2 hours... Cos It has blatiently shoved in my face that nobody cares....

I would fill in with what I did today... But it involves writing about a certian person... And I don't want to be ripped into.... So.... Yeh.....
Anyway... It was fun.. And I enjoyed it... 

And its sad that being in yoshi's top 8 is a competition... I like them... But i dont love them....
I kind of like them...

So yeh... I guess... If anyone cares about today... they would ask for me to tell them... But as said b4 its obvious nobody cares....
 
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HAHAHA   
09:19pm 21/08/2006
  This entry is for all of those who think taking drugs is cool and makes others think better of you...

Well lets take an example

Marily

All she is is a little coke head... and she certainly doesnt look cool and noone thinks better of her...

GOD I FUCKING HATE HER!!!!

how dare she call me a whore... come on... at least i get some attractive guys...

Her.. hahaha.... craig, richard..... HAHAHA she used to be obbsessed over higgy for heavens sake...

So yeh.. drugs dont make you look cool...
 
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12:24pm 08/08/2006
 

OK well its official....

If any1 needs marks to compare they're to to make them feel better here they are:

Computing (higher) - D
English (higher)       - C
Maths (in2)                - C
Biology (int2)            - C
and.....

History(in2)             -A

 
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Parents   
12:35am 08/08/2006
 
mood: distressed
Yeh.. well they've been arguing again and this this time she was crying.

I fucking hate it when they do that...

It really cos make me unhappy...

Why can't they jst sort it out??
 
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02:17am 05/08/2006
  Shit I feel lonely..

No guys want me .. They just want to use me.. I want a boyfriend.. But they dont want me... fuck it hurts...

People i fancy fancy other ppl usually my mates... grr.. why cant they fancy me??

God i feel like shit :(
 
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02:27am 18/07/2006
 
  • I am so confused. 
  • I feel so down. 
  • I dont know anymore.
  • I like Fisher.
  • I am unsure of Fisher liking me.
  • I love lloyd,
  • I think.
  • I however feel that he is using MY feelings to make him feel better or/and to laugh at me.
  • I feel like I'm loosing a freind, but to my knoledge I'm not
  • I feel like I'm loosing myself, but what am I loosing and where am I loosing it??
  • I feel very small, very insignificant, like really in the whole scale of things I don't actually matter.
  • I do not like the feelings I am startingto posess
  • I do not like the feelings that the new feelings are coming from.
  • I hate Feeling that I need to change BECAUSE I'm the one who's wrong.
  • I hate feeling everyone hates me.
  • I hate confusion
  • I hate this list
  • I am not having fun creating this.
  • I am having about as much fun as texting Lloyd. Which is none.
  • I hate feeling my life is meaningless and worthless.
  • I feel like I am loosing grip of reality.
  • I love to daydream as it is the only place I can't get hurt.
  • I hate the fact that in a few years I probably wont talk to my mum.
  • I  also hate that i can feel our good, happy, nice mother daughter relatioship is failing.
  • I hate the fact that men scare me.
  • I hate the fact that I can't trust
  • I hate that people walk all over me, because I'm nice and I suposedly dont ask for respect for myself my house or my belongings.
  • I sort of enjoy the fact people feel at home in my house.
  • I hate the fact they trash it and disrespect it even though I have welcomed them and they show no signs of change no matter how upset I get about it .
  • I Want to be loved.


Ok im going buy

 
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01:56am 18/07/2006
  Oh well.. a tad confused...

Well recently (since thursday) i have been talking to lloyd again.. and after a long convo about stuff.. we said our good byes and hung up..

Soon after i got a txt..

'night night. love you. xxx'

i was confused.. surely not after all this time, all this pain, all the trouble of getting over him he would dare say .. i love you.. but sure enough he did.

I cryed a little.. not much.. and txted him back... do you mean that?

And he said.. i always have..

So i found myself texting back i love you too.

But ...

1. i dont know how i feel about him... i think i still love him.. but im jst not that sure

2. i cant trust him.. i dont know if hes jst saying that really to fuck abut with my feelings..

Being so paranoid isnt good =P
 
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WOOO :)   
01:39pm 29/06/2006
  Ok.. Well... Weekend was fun :)

But last night i was bored so i phoned ross had a bit ay a banter wae him.. Then got on the bus wae kellianne and mooney.. when they got off i got bored so i phoned fisher.... and OH EM GEE!!!!

Yeh we had a lovely convo about me stalking him and how he wouldnt mind and how he was going to tie me up :S and we betted that he wouldnt meet uyp with me one day and we had a debate on what to bet then it ended up us talking about tying me up and him wanting to kiss me 'and other stuff' and then having a convo about 'other stuff'

Ah well... Even if nothing happens it was a fun convo and im going to see him one day but with out my mates... HMMM... Lol.... Nah he said he wanted to see me but with out my mates.... and HMMMM again :P

Ah well.. I dont mind.. Im happy ... Its fisher.... Hes hot :D And i dont stalk him.. LOl...

OH well..

Over and out
 
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An ode to shiboaby   
12:51pm 31/05/2006
 
mood: cheerful
Yes... well yesterday....

Woke up.

Still feeling lazy, looked at the watch. 10:15...

"Fuck off!". Rolled over and went back to sleep, for about thirty minuits. I then realised sleeping was fuetile and was no longer going to happen. As I lay there I was pondering basically the same thing i had been the night before wether I wanted to get out of bed and get food. The Next problem arrouse when the question: Whatsits or cake?? God that was hard.... One of each??  What would i eat first and whats the best so i could save it to last and still taste it after i ate.... Yes as we can all see the life of a stoner is a very comlicated thing.. Lol.
      Well. I then decided to carry on readin Espidair Street By Iain Banks. I couldnt really remember the start cos i was so stoned... Reading was maybe not the correct thing to do then but as I read I started to remember. I read quuite alot. About 80pages. But then the call of food became too much... I could no longer concentrate so i got up and got a bag of watsits.... Ye olde watsists never fail to please... Unless your weird. Lol... Like shiboaby and her quavours :P
      When i stoood up and walked over to open the curtians :O shock horror i never open my curtains... Well the blub had blown the night before and i had found a letter from my mum... I replyed... I was quite angry.... But I wrote what i felt... And how i knew she felt even tho she didnt know it... if you get what i mean... Like shes only angry i slept with lloyd was because that made me like very1 else.... Well you know... every1 else being all the sdcabby kids that drink and smoke and have sex and dont care about there lives and are wasters and what not (polbeth weins) and that was the eason why she was angry. She even agreed with it..
      Went on line to see if Carrie was on, I don't know why ... I just felt in the mood to see her, Alas she wasnt but shiboaby was, she told me she was going to livi but leaving at 4. I started getting ready and played free cell abit... I love that game :D My mum phoned me just as I was leaving the house ; " I hope your in because we can go and get your picture for your provisional When i get in which will be in about 20 mins". So anoyingly I couldnt go out.

Livingston

     Went to livi to get my picture taken.... Yeh well the first time i moved and the second 2 times my mum made me laugh.. so my picture on my provisional is going to be/ is utter shit... Lol.. Its not as bad as it could have been...
When I had my picture i went away to get a bus to go to shiboabys... Alas... I mannaged to get it all the way form asda to the connecty bit and the centre and then Wee Dale appears... Fucking typical.. he wasn't down for months now i see him all the time... FFS!! Lol... Nah... i luv him really... he asked me out the other day.. I said No.... Obvo ....
     We bummed about a bit met silent bob and douglases big sister... Shes kool... Dale and John (not i shagged a man john and not ex john... a new random hot neddy john *drools*) disapeared and Silent bob and douglases sister walked me to the bus stop.. We had a laugh talking about how me n douglases sister were the best 2 people in the world and how silent bob will miss me when im gona and will break down in tears :P Ah the fun times. Got on the bus and nearly missed shiboabys stop.. I didnt expect it to get to uphall station THAT quickly.. 
     But it was ok.. Shiboaby wass there to rescue me...

Shiboaby's house

     Went to shiboabys house... Was fun we had a laugh... Decided we was hungry grabbed a bag of crisps sat in the livingroom. I was admiring this really pretty one of edinburgh.. But next to it was the fucking freaky one of this preist. I actually started getting reallyquite weirded out by it... was scary. Lol
We decided all the bitching had made us hungry and we made soup... She has sum weird soup:
Chicken and white wine..
      Lol.... Thats a weird soup... Im sure it would taste ok... Maybe.. But white wine is stinking.. So we decided to go for the good old traditional soup of Tamato :D we put it in cups and the cups were right next to the kettle then she went to the fridge and got out milk.. I was like "Shiboaby we are making soup NOT tea" and she was like "I know... dont you put milk in your soup?" I thought she was jst fucking about until she actually put mil in it I was like "Ewwww .Why do you do that?" " To thicken it up... The soup still tastse the same" So i tryed it.. It was ok...
     However while we were Making the soup (see i was about to call it tea :P) Her next door neighbor walked down the path with the dog And I was like "OOOOOO" and shinobi was like "noooo" and he ran back up the path with this dog and I swear he had MOOBS!!!! Massive Moobs and i was like " NOOOOOO ... EWWWWWW" but then me n shinobi started looking out for him but he didnt come out again.. Everytime we herd and noise we'd be like "mooobs?!?!" but it wasnt n we'd be sad.. Then there dog was taken in side (Cos it was tied up outside" and I said to shinobi as she came up the stairs "MoObs taken the dog in" and she was like "OH NO!!" which was quite funny... So we now have a weird game of stalking / watching shinobis next door neighbor.. who is going out with a really fat lassie.
     We sang a bit of kevin bloody wilson but she and I couldnt really remeber the words so we just sang "SHES GOT A BIG FAT BUM IT WIEGHS HALF A FUCKING TON" Over and over again...
     We watched futurama and CSI and ever song that came on the tv we'd always sing or hum... It was soo funny.. Then it was time fo rme to go home.. We went to the bus stop.. We'd Only just missed a bus.. so we dicideded to wait for the other bus in 30 mins. And then a bus went by and wee dale was on it i done a big over the top wave that invovled me jumping.. was funny..
     Then I went on a massive Dane Cook Rant saying like every quote i ciould remeber siboaby laughed like alot.. Was funny.. we walked about abit and bought sum Jooce... and i decided i wanted to work int he spar too so I would be near to shiboaby and make her laugh.. Then she thought dane cooks name was.... What..... Douglas Murry?? or something like that... Oh that was funny..
So we bought jooooce and as we were paying my bus drove past so i had to fucking run.. I wouldnt have made it if it wasnt for some guy getting off the bus.... I didnt even have time to say bye properly (so here it is BYE X X X I LOVE YOU X X X SEE YOU SOON X X X) and my Joooce was all fizzed up....

Back in Livi

Well.. Got back to livi... Was really needing a fag... Id had like shit 3s from the hot john guy... and nothing else that day i was fuckiong gasping... I wish i didnt smoke us much... So when i got to livi I phoned darren to see if he was about he wasnt.. then I sae the really drunk man ....
     For those who dont know the story goes like this as to how we met him the first time :

It was the  night Lloyd and richard and statton came up... They were late.. As we all know... So it was time for daniel to go home so me n kellianne walked up up to the bus stop leaving Mooney in the house waiting for the chippy.... In the bus stop was a drunk man... And i mean this man is ALWAYS drunk... Everytime i see him... Hes pished..
And he was telling us how hes decided not to go to work that day n jst go to the pub instead.. Then he said about how some1 nicked his phone (i personally think he just lost it cos hes an alkie) And how he'd went to his mothers and Started to shout at her and how she had called the police and then he bought a fag from me for a Pound.
The a police car drove past and he said... IS that car turnign round? and kellianne said yes.. and he grabbed his beer and ran.. and the police stopped and said where did he go? and kellianne said over there... and they caught him,.... and wewere worryed about him remebering us and wanting to hurt us... and the next day we saw him again and we walked the long way jst not to see him...

and he was smoking... so i was like could i tap a fag? and he was like Naw your too young to smoke and i was like IM 17 on monday ... and he was like ok.. seen as your 17 onm monday you can have my last fag.. and i was like Ta.. and happy cos i had my nicotene.. but they were stinking fags and made me feel ick.. Went home listened to more kevin bloody wilson with my dad and got stoned...

AND THAT WAS MY DAY .....

Over and out xxx


 
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POUR MES KELLIANNE   
01:36pm 30/05/2006
  Ok... well... Lloyds banned from my house and my mum gave me this big long lecture letter... so i wrote a 2 page one back :P
I couldnt help it.. as i worte i thought of more and more things to write and then i got pissed off... and brought up the txt thing and how if she wants respect she should give it to me as well.. cos she never does.... thus the reason why she caught us having sex... she could have at least fucking knocked... Seee lack of respect...

Well... Yeh... Im sorry for my mood yesterday... its jst that when we are together we are great but the second other people are there too we jst get angry.. Like yesterday i jst went mental i couldnt help it its jst.. as we left the house you said yeh ped n that might be out.... Maybe paul... Then you go to the shop.. but the second we share that with david you freak but its ok to share with everyone when i liked ped... So i snapped abit.. but i love you and i dont want to fall out...
Maybe i should jst stop coming to see you.. or at least when theres more than jst us there...

Oh and.. Party this saturday :D oh yeh.... Kellianne please come.. i know we argud yesterday but how can we torture rob if u dont go :P

Ok well

Carrie i would love it if you came... we cant have bruce tho... im not allowed to many people..a nd rob and kellianne are gone be there so we dont need bruce adding to the vomit :P

Nah i love kellianne and bruce really..

Shiboaby you didnt reply on the other one but i would love you to come too
 
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06:09pm 29/05/2006
 
mood: crazy
Oh well..

ITs all been fun and games recently :D

On saturday me and mooney were ment to go to edin cos lloyd was coming but then we decided not to which is jst as well cos he didnt fucking come .... again.... i was so fucking angry hes such a sod..

Well on friday went to thomases which was kinda fun... but not really .. the highlight of the noght was lloyd txting me... Which made me smile so fucking much....So we arranged him coming up and staying or at least meeting me in edinburgh.

Went home was shattered and kinda drunk so i had a bath.. went to bed. tidyed up..

On saturday Mooney came to mine cos my dad was giving him fish and a tank... so it was fun :) so we got bored. And then me n mooney found some tenis balls and we saterted throwing them like in friends and we went all around the house and seeing if we could throw it and walk about so we managed to walk into every room and throw the ball with out dropping it.. it was fun;.. so we then started playing with 2 then 4... was mucho fun...

Went to mooneys continued to play the throwing game.. set up the tank which is uber kool. Btw.

Sunday... i went home kinda pissed off cos lloyd didnt show.. again.. and to be honest who really wants another fucking david?? no1... he was a sod.. but i really cant really trust him cos he wont show when he says he will and now im worryed about him pulling one of my mates when hes at my hoose and i dont want to feel like it but david did it both times and if hes like david..... well.... who cant see how i feel?? and not understand it..

Well i went home and i phoned him... i couldnt help it id got passed the anger and was jst starting to feel quite depressed... if didnt want to think he hated me and lied to me constantly jst to hurt me...
So i phoned him....
...
no answer...

really pissed off...

then myphone rings..

wtf i think...

LLoyd...

rung out...

Well i phoned him back and the convo went kinda like this:

Me: Hiya
LL: Hay (sleepily)
Me: How cum u didnt meet me yesterday?
LL: Shit, To be honest i forgot...
(Hmmm i thought.... bullshit)
Me: well.... (really quietly)... do you fancy meeting up or summat in edin the day??
LL: no.... Yeh.... No... Ill jst go there...
Me: umm ok.... well... ill phone you back in an hour...bye

I phoned him back... Phones off

Oh well i thought. Just fucking me about again.. I couldnt belive how he could fuck me about like that..
About 20 mins later i get a txt..
Oh hes not gona come... "im sorry.. ive no money... My gran wont let me come.... I spontaneously combusted" some lie like thaht i thought...
No...
"Hi im on the bus going to the train station"

WHOW... i was surprised.

Well he came to mine... I felt abit off... weird... with him... didnt really talk.. started to hug and kiss. was nice... he started to get kinda clingy... It was nice.. he kept hugging me and kissing me... Not letting me leave him to get the phone or anythying.. :) was fun...

Well bla bla bla

Having sex... long story short... my mum knows... Grr...

Im kinda worryed about what shes gona say :(

Well... thats basically it..

Had the computing exam today... it went ok... i hope..

Over and out...
Abi xxxx


OH ... PS... MAYBE PARTY... MAYBE SATURDAY.... POUR MES BIRTHDAY...
SO DOES ANYONE FANCY COMING IF ITS ON... IF SO... COMMENT... AND SAY..

it will prolly be a bring your own booze or at least money... sorry... but my parents are so stingey..

xxx
 
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07:46pm 26/05/2006
  hay

IM SO BORED>>>

BORED..

lol.. jst so everyone knows :P
 
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I love him when i hear his music!   
09:41pm 18/05/2006
 
mood: gloomy
Ok well Im sorry for the mood today..

But... i dont know... Mainly its the period :S which means on the pill the moro...

But its also.. I love you but i really cant take the fact you rip me all the time... its ok when its just us 2. u dont do it. the second we are with other people. Even ped n that its just ripping me all the time... And its kinda upsetting.. I try for it not to get me down. but i really cant help it.. i dont rip you all the time.. i do if its a joke.. but its like the vortex thing. its a laugh at first but after a while it really really hurts..

I know i have small tits and i know im not really that friendly to my dog and i know that im a slut and all the jazz..
But sometimes.. I just need not to be reminded.

I love you so much. I love being with you.. your my best friend and i tell you everything . thus the reason why im informing you of this... Cos i really dont want to fall out cos i love you.

But could you just lay off the slagging me.. You do it when your with people like pyett n mooney and everyone.. Its constantly me put down or shoved out.. and i dont mind.. it just wish it wasnt as much.

Now im worryed this is going to get an adele type of comment back. I dont want it too.. but meh.

~~

Mikey from liverpool.. (big brother) is hot :D

~~

Ok. well i think this is all i will write. Im sorry i was tetchy today. Its just all of a sudden the comments hurt. And i just really wanted to cry..

Ok well im gona go Away now.

Please dont hate me..

XxX
 
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STOLEN!!   
06:42pm 17/05/2006
  T H E L A S T P E R S O N W H O:
1. Slept in your bed besides you: Kelllianne
2. Saw you cry: Kellianne
3. Made you cry: Kellianne
4. Went to the movies with you: Wholy fuck that was long ago... I think it was Liam
5. You went to dinner with: SPLATT!! :)
6. You talked to on the phone: Ross cos it was his birthday and i had to fone him.. hes lovely.. i happy i met him but i like Jamie better :)
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it: Lloyd.. but i dont know if he ment it
8. Made you laugh: Mooney

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R:
1. pierce your nose or tongue?: Tongue (but it hurts too much)
2. be serious or be funny?: Funny.
3. drink whole or skim milk?: semi
4. die in a fire or drown?: Dunno..
5. spend time with your parents or spend time with your enemies: PARENTS!! i quite enjoy a bit of time with my parents specially ma dad

A R E Y O U:
1. simple or complicated? complicated
2. Gay? Ayee, totally. (keep with carries :P)
3. Hardcore? TO THE MAX

D O Y O U P R E F E R:
1. flowers or candy?: Flowers
2. gray or black?: Black.
3. Color or Black and white photos?: depends of what the picture is of
4. Pink or Purple?: Pink.
5. sunrise or sunset?: Sunset.
8. staying up late or waking up early? Staying up late.

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y:
1. do you like anyone?: Yes
2. do they know it?: Yes and no... kinda :P
3. do they like you?: He says so but i doubt it. the other i dont think so

D O Y O U P R E F E R:
1. sun or moon?: Moon.
2. Winter or Fall?: Fall.
3. left or right?: Right.
4. having 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? Two best friends.
5. sun or rain?: I love them both
6. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: Vanilla.

A B O U T Y O U:
What time is it?: 6:45
Name?: Abigail susan clark.
Nickname(s): Abi... And Raab...
Where were you born?:Spimpsons (edinburgh)
What is your birth date?: 05.06.89
What song do you have stuck in your head?: Plain white t's hay there dellilah

W H A T D O Y O U W A N T:
Where do you want to live? Wales with all my friends
How many kids do you want? Pass... 2.3.4. i dunno... depends who its with and stuff. 1.2.3 boys 1.girl
What would you want to name a girl? Delilah.. and/or dianne
What would you want to name a boy? dade.calub.Wyatt (or summat weird like that:P )

U N I Q U E:
1. Nervous Habits? I duno
2. Are you double jointed?: no
3. Can you roll your tongue?: Ayee.
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: Kinda
5.Can you cross your eyes?: Ayee.
6. Do you make your bed daily?:Sumtimes
7. Which shoe goes on first?: The one i pick up first ?!?!.
8. Ever thrown one at someone?: What? grass- yeh... shit-NO
10. What jewellery do you wear?: None
11. Do you twirl your spaghetti: yeh
12. Have you ever eaten Spam: Naww.
13. favourite ice cream: Vanilla
14. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?: None. mine are ont he work surface
15. What's your favorite beverage?: TEA
16. What's your favorite restaurant: Pass
17. Do you cook?: Can do if i want to

L E T ' S B E H O N E S T:
In the last month have you..
1. Had a bf/gf: Yes *weeps*
2. Bought something: FUCK YEH
4. Sang: Again... FUCK YEH
5. Been kissed: Yes :(
6. Had sex: Yes
7. Gotten high: I am now you come to speeak of it... damned colin
8. Danced crazy: Yeh
9. Gotten your hair cut: Naww.
10. Cried: FUCK YEh
11. Lied: YES
12.Snuck out of the house: Nope...
 
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I HATE EMILY   
05:54pm 16/05/2006
 
mood: angry
See Emily.

WHAT A FUCKING CHILDISH IMMATURE WEE BITCH!!!

How dare she go about saying 1. i fucking raped craig and 2. asking every1 if they hate me..

Just go to hell you fucking big chinned cunt.. see.... thats how fucking pissy i am.. i said the word i hate more than anyhting in the world.. and if anyhting fucking immature gets written on signs at the centre i will fucking know who fucking did it and she had fucking better watch... what goes around comes around and one day she''ll fuck with the wrong person and they will fucking knock her big fucking chin through a fucking brick wall..

And i will look forward to that day.

Just because She has a fucking boyfreind she is better than anyone else. Not a fucking chance in hell.. cos her bfs really that great? HAHAHA dont fucking even joke,... He used to be... yeh... ill admit that. craig was one of the fucking coolest guys i knew. i used to love him muchly... i dont know what the fuck she did to him but i wish down dead she haddent.. i think the world would be a much better place.. ok maybe not with out her but atleast if she fucking grew up !!!

What the fuck seriously have i fucking done to her? NOTHING..

She just sees me as a threat cos 1. i used to be best freinds with craig
2. i used to be going out to craig
3. Im female.
4. ok i may not be attractive.. but well lets face it.. compared to some people...

She has always been a fucking bitch to me.. I told her something once in secret and everyone knew. Unfortunatly i thought it was some1 else who had said it and i fell out with them for it.. I see that was a BIG mistake.. She was 7, 8 , 9 10000000 times better than that fucking cow...

OH GOD even looking at her anoys me..

HOW FUCKING DARE SHE GIVE ME EVILS AT THE CENTRE!!!

Notice How i looked away from her.. I even sat at the same table as her and didnt bitch or shout or scream or give her evils or anything.. maturity level there...

Now i appologize to many people who may actually like emily... like craig tho thats a waste of time hes as much of a fucking dick head as she is...

MOSTLY TO WEE CARRIE

Cos i adore her to bits and i dont think its fair how i know what emily willl do and thats make her pick sides.. and i dont want to fall out with her or rob or any1 over this.. this is purley between me and emily...

OH SHE ANGERS ME SO MUCH!!!

Well

Need to go out... ill maybe rant more later

ill leave youz all with one thought:


HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE

oh yeh... and next time i have an rage black out while cutting fuck out of a branch and breaking an axe... i can promise you now it wont be lloyd im thinking about

love youz all
(cept emily and craig HATE HATE HATE)

xxx
 
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09:40pm 14/05/2006
  met a new mayan..

Hes called jamie.. Hes hot. :)

We put grass in each others hair.. it was nice to have someone to mess about wae again.. cos lloyd... lets face it...

Thats fucked basically. and i dont really care anymore.. i need to move on and find a new guy, some1 who is nice and bla bla bla... all that jazz.. :)
 
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WOOO !! :D   
05:25pm 10/05/2006
  I'm trying not to feel you
But you just brushed by
And if you dare to cross that line you know
My toes would step on fire

Ohh sizzle when it's face on face
And skin on skin
I'm trying to keep you out
And I'm trying to keep me in

One hundred million eyes
Behind these walls
Watching you
Hearing you
Knowing you

Keep me a secret
Keep me out your arms
Keep my kisses off your lipstick
Stop me swallowing your charms
Keep yourself a secret
Lock up all your doors
I'll keep you out of my dreams
Just you keep me out of yours

Needn't not to notice you
But you grab my eye
Don't let embraces linger
Try to keep our arms untied

See there you go again
You're making me mad
'Cos I'm drawn to this danger
Oh, it's making me mad

One hundred million reasons to ignore
Of wanting to be with you
One hundred million eyes
Behind these walls
Watching you
Hearing you
Knowing you

Keep me a secret
Keep me out your arms
Keep my kisses off your lipstick
Stop me swallowing your charms
Keep yourself a secret
Lock up all your doors
I'll keep you out of my dreams
Just you keep me out of yours

All I'm asking is for nothing
And if nothing is enough for you
Oh leave it I said keep you inside your head
Under your breath

Keep me a secret
Keep me out your arms
Keep my kisses off your lipstick
Stop me swallowing your charms
Keep yourself a secret
Lock up all your doors
I'll keep you out of my dreams
Just you keep me out of yours

Keep me a secret
Keep me out your arms
Keep my kisses off your lipstick
Stop me swallowing your charms
Keep yourself a secret
Lock up all your doors
I'll keep you out of my dreams
Just you keep me out of yours
 
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11:58pm 07/05/2006
 
mood: depressed
~Oh well.

~I cant get into my livejournal (red_wellies)

~So i thought f-u-c-k that ill make a new one.. I'll Probably not use it tho.

~Well.. Basically.. All i can think of is Lloyd. I miss him greatly. I love him so much..

~Why doesnt this stop hurting? Hes only a boy, It doesnt usually hurt like this..Why does it now?

~It only helps me come to the conculsion love sucks.. I hate it. I love him and he doesnt love me.

~ I want him, I need him, I miss him. But its unreturned. He doesnt love me. And knowing that hurts. I had him. I lost him. All i want is him.

~ Ive not felt like this for someone for a long time. I eat sleep and breate him. And that hurts... I want it to go away.

~ I dont know. He was txting me (briefly) yestderday. And it wasnt nasty.. That may be a step forward In the right direction but the chances of me getting him back are slim to none.

~ i think i may go.
 
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